I didn’t know how to explain this to you, and maybe was too scared to try an attempt at how sad and tired it made me to have to leave you, how the leaving somehow felt bigger than times before, how it had glimmers of a goodbye reminiscent of a breakups long goodbye.

Leading me to your bed, the travel exhaustion settling through my limbs, relaxed and tense at the same time, feeling like there was no way I could cum again. Your, fingers, hands, and tongue have helped me cum so many times in the past days I think not possible to make it happen again. I also know once my cum is over it will be another step closer to saying goodbye. I don’t want to cum and I don’t want to say goodbye and I want to cum all over you.

Despite the inevitable goodbye that will follow, I do not resist. Fumbling out of our clothes we drop, our bodies heavy and tight, begin to loosen, relax and ease into each other.  Your fingers run over my body, drifting, light and solid at the same time. Your kisses and licks to my cunt make the weight of my body sink even heavier into your bed.

The orgasm feels so far away, deeply buried, not willing to reach the surface, despite how furiously we both seem to be working to pull it out. Our limbs meshed, my finger working my cunt furious, mad even, mad that I have to leave you and mad that my cum is trapped inside. Your fingers fill, moving in and out of me, pistoning. I feel the orgasm in me, but it’s seems too hard to bring it out. I want to give up in exhaustion, I want to stop in a pool of our sweaty attempt.

Then you do something that puts me over the edge, gentle and nonchalant- as though you have no idea I am even struggling to bring out this orgasm. Moving between my legs lowering your face to my puffy fucked lips and you lick, one hot soft wet lick, leaving behind a juicy gob of your saliva. Your breath and the spit are so warm on my cunt, that I melt, I soften, the tenseness of my body lessens. Feeling my hard clit under my fingers, slipping with the viscosity of your saliva creates sparks. A wave if humid electricity consumes my spine as I allow myself to let go, to climax and cum, the stars dance and the static noise fill my brain.

Climax, release and sweet sad goodbyes soon follow.

Saturday, May 4, 2013 7:00pm until 9:30pm

An exciting evening of readings from beyond the gender binary. Doors at 7pm, readings at 7:30

Center for Sex & Culture (1349 Mission btw 9th and 10th)

SAM ROSENTHAL visits from Brooklyn to present work from his erotic genderQueer romance novel Rye. Genderqueer porn star JIZ LEE reads new work; their writing recently appeared in the Feminist Porn Book! CAROL QUEEN, author, sexologist, and pillar of the sex-positive feminism movement presents new work of personal discovery and insight. Plus more writings from people along the gender spectrum and those who love them including: Gina de Vries, Seeley Quest, and the amazing Marilyn Roxie (previous CSC library intern, social media rock star, and smart as whip).

Suggested donation $5-20 sliding scale, NOTAFLOF.

This weeks feature artist, Meghan Willis of TsuruBride, works in the embroidery arts– the erotically charged embroidery arts! How good is that?

Her work is sensual, delicate, female driven and is experimental and creative in her use of mixed medias (including the computer arts). Some of Meghan’s latest pieces undertake the representation of a photographic double exposure– creating a dynamic layers of threads and movement.

Much of TusuruBride’s work is inspired first by photography, which she then uses as a template. Many of the photographs Willis works from are a collaboration with Tsurufoto, her art partner in crime and main squeeze, also a previous featured artist.

TsuruBride’s work can be found and purchased on Etsy, and how wonderful, she does commission work– you could own a personal embroidered piece of art of your own image.

TsuruBride

TsuruBride Art & Embroidery by Meghan Willis

To see all my favorite TsuruBride photos stop by the Library Vixen Tumblr.

APRIL 14th Noon – 6PM

Zines, comics and art by the Bay Area’s best creators of transgressive and erotic material.

The Center for Sex & Culture

1349 Mission St. SF.

Bookish Beasts is a one day zine fest for the creators of art, books and comics featuring sex, sexuality, gender and erotica. We want to give you the opportunity to exhibit your works, and connect with local readers who love

and collect adult material.

Bookish Beasts artists- Tara Madison Avery and on twitter @taramavery, Janani Bala also on Janani Bala on Tumblr, Rene Capone and on twitter @renecapone, Xxavier Carter: Writer, Artist, Motherfucker on twitter @CharlyeMonroe, Tyler Cohen, Finley Coyle, Agnes Czaja and on twitter @agentagnes, Diego Gomez and on twitter @DesignNurd, Oliver James, Dorian Katz, Kerry Kelly, Jon Mac  and Jon Macy on Tumblr, Ajuan Mance and on twitter @blackoncampus, Fred Noland and on twitter @FredNoland, billy ocallaghan, Pangolin Collective, Christine Smith and on twitter @PrincessComics, Sy Wagon, Alex Woolfson and on twitter @ALEXWOOLFSON,  Alok Vaid-Menon on Tumblr, and more tba. Special guest- gallery/print shop Electric Works also on twitter @sfelectricworks- and Act-Up SF

The CSC Library & Archive Zine and Comic collection will be on display, along with a large collection of duplicate holdings available for purchase or institutional donation. Plus the CSC crew will have their very own Bookish Beasts Zine available for purchase, and lots of other great CSC goodies. 

In connection with Bookish Beast’s- April 11 Que(e)rySF dance party at El Rio 3158 Mission St. SF 

Que(e)rySF dance party that celebrating queer librarians and those who love them! All proceeds benefit the Center For Sex and Culture’s Library Zineography project. This party was inspired by the awesome Que(e)ry New York parties that were established in 2010.

Yay Que(e)rySF! Thank you, thank you!

The CSC provides judgement-free educations, cultural events, a library/media archive, and other resources to audiences across the sexual and gender spectra; and to research and disseminate factual information, framing and incoming issues of public policy health. Please consider donating copies of your work to the library and helping spread the word about this great resource. All of the CSC Library books are searchable though Goodreads, CSC’s Zineography, along with their growing zine catalog/database, which is currently being cataloged.

Curated by:If interested in participating or for more information contact us- gallery@sexandculture.org or at library@sexandculture.org

Jon Macy

Dorian Katz, CSC Curator

Anissa Malady, CSC Librarian 

Tess McCarthy, CSC Archivist

DJ’s:

Steve Fabus (Go BANG!/UCSF Library Tech)

Laydown (Hard French, Dial Up/Library Worker)

Sissyslap (The Handsome Young Men, Friends of Dorothy/Will wear DICTIONARY for Candy!)

Literary Performances:

Rhiannon Argo
Kat Marie Yoas
Cheena Marie Lo
Elizabeth Weisbrot
Andrew Demcak

Raffle of:
-New and used queer books, zines + book bags
-Guest list + drink ticket for Hard French
-Guest list + drink ticket for Honey Soundsystem
-May guest list + Go BANG! button + Go BANG! t-shirt
-MORE TBA!

Hosted by Dr Deep in the Stacks, Rhiannon Argo, Kevin Coleman and Jaye Fishel.

$5-7 sliding scale

All proceeds benefit the Center for Sex and Culture Library and the Zineography project. This project is a community cataloging project to preserve zines that are unique artifacts of sexual and cultural heritage. Many of these zines focus on queer and gender identity, transgender culture and LGBTIQA subject matter.

CSC Zineography 

CSC Zineography Catalog/Databse

Bookish Beast Zine Fest: Sunday 4/14

History of Que(e)ry NY:

Que(e)ry was founded in 2010, inspired by the work of the Desk Set. Since its first party in June 2010 in Brooklyn, NY, Que(e)ry has expanded and continued its work to bring attention and support to hidden queer collections, and to provide a fun social space for queer librarians (and all who love them). Librarians, archivists, artists, educators, filmmakers, library school students, metadata specialists, museum professionals, scholars, technophiles, historians, writers, and bibliophiles of all genders and orientations have made their way to Que(e)ry events in Brooklyn and Manhattan.

Center for Sex and Culture 1349 Mission St. (between 9th and 10th) San Francisco, CA 94103

Lovely people! We need your help.

Our entire building has been attacked by mural-bombers! Huge tags have badly marred the Eclairacuda Bandersnatch mural on Grace Alley. The city has cited us, and we have to clean the tag off AND try to perserve Eclair’s wonderful work. Robert is calling for helpers on Monday, April 1. What better way to spend April Fool’s Day than by helping preserve the work of an important street artist?

Please come help if you’re availble! It will involve scrubbing, citrus solvent, and much camaraderie. Call time is 10am; I imagine we can still use your help if you can’t get there til later. We hope to have the artist present to help guide our work.

Thank you SO much! Please help us, and invite your friends too!

xox—Carol Queen

You can see pictures of the mural before the tagging at http://cscmural.tumblr.com/

PS — If you can’t make it but want to help with a donation (we are going to need gallons of fixative to prevent this from happening again!):

https://www.wepay.com/stores/sex-culture

The Mission of the Center for Sex & Culture is to provide judgment-free education, cultural events, a library/media archive, and other resources to audiences across the sexual and gender spectrum; and to research and disseminate factual information, framing and informing issues of public policy and public health. Find out more at http://www.sexandculture.org/

While this is advice I attempt to follow myself– particularly when it comes to sex and love– I think somewhere in my the back of my mind it’s not what I believe. I believe I will find love- and it will encompass all that true, dur dee, wet hot sex that I require. Until then, I think I have conditioned myself to find love with the lovers I’ve encountered, even if it’s only one time, three months or a year. But, somewhere in my mind or heart (to be cliche) I am expecting more– more love and more sex love- a partner, even when I claim not to be expecting such things, I am guilty of expecting them.

So… in a life of suppressed expectations, when the unexpected hits, it can be a truly lovely moment.

This year Saint Valentine was a good to me and it was quite unexpected. How could I resist a sweet and charming cock with an suprise offering of a Valentine and chocolate? I couldn’t.

The Feast of Saint Valentine consisted of my sloppy tasty gushy wet pussy. Who knew before the night would end this quiet man would devour my pussy like that, sliding his fingers into me making me soak and pour onto his hand and face as he worshiped on his knees between my thighs. I guess I did, I knew the second he kissed me he wanted to worship my cunt, the way his tongue swirled mine, made me instantly aware that he wanted to do the same thing to my clit. Plus, kissing is the gateway for me– once we start kissing, and if I like it, there is usually no turning back for me. I want more more more.

Finding my way to your lap, the kisses made of heavy lips and heavier breath, our tongues twist and tangle as my skirt hikes up to my waist. Straddling you, taking my spot as your kissing lips and tongue attempt to discover what the rest of me tastes like though my mouth. From my position I feel you, I feel my cunt get hot, get wet, get greedy- and I feel you.

We kiss and grind. The tight fitting librarian skirt has got to go. By the time it came to letting zippers drop, my skirt was so hiked up around my waist it was hard to hike back down, the zipper inextricably stuck. The words I had come across earlier that week by Erica Jong ran through my head, the “zipper fell away like rose petals.” This was not the case with my zipper, but by this time the urgency of getting out of our clothing had reached. Taking over I yank down, then up, then down again, finally the zippers teeth unclench and let me out. The relief, the humor, the insistent thump of my cunt made me want to rip my tights off.

It doesn’t take long, the clothing is strewn, nothing between us. The rolling around logistics become a blur, your fingers and mouth find me and when they do, in this moment I find that freedom to open, to let it pour out, to drop hesitation, to expect nothing and find everything. By everything, I mean blissful cum gush orgasms all over your face and cock.

Between my legs you kneel, licking and your fingers filling– discovering the pedagogy of my pussy. When you locate that sweet spot, those familiar tiny white electric stars start their march through my brain, my body becoming rigid and tense, and that clicking wet sound emanates  from between my legs. My body stiffen and straining, the stars now pounding for release, my toes clinching and that white noise fills the room–. Unexpectedly, I let go all over your hands and face, enthusiastically you take all of me in.

Having an orgasm like that is an instant freedom, regardless of what happens from this point on, tonight I am free to cum like I want, like my body wants.

I want more. The need to fuck, to feel you inside overcomes me. Assertive and pussy charged, I ride on top, feeling you slide against my sloppy wet lips, feeling you hit my clit with the head of your cock, still enjoying the wetness from my pussy worship cum. It doesn’t take long for your cock to fill me, to find my eager hole that swallows you up. The orgasm and cum are a release, but not tense and hard like before, but just as wet. The release, again, comes with that sense of pure freedom to let it all go, which I do– with your cock inside of me,  the liquid flowing out, I feel the warmth surround us, between us. The feeling of wanting to stay right here on top of you is overwhelming, I stay there until it passed, and I still don’t want to get off.

Sweet free wet release, how I love you so– plus one has to love an unexpected tangled pursuit, mixed with hints of comedic error– always fun.

Feature Image Color Photo by Natacha Merritt

Bull Shit! Lemme see.

Well now visions of cock will be dancing in my head. Love my work.

Ed Ross- is a master of wet plate/collodion photography. He captures eroticism not only with nudity, but in posture, gaze and stance. Shooting mainly women, his models posses a strength as well as seduction. His army of wet plate models often come with a don’t fuck with me look or it coul be a fuck me right or I’ll kill you  look. The imagery is simultaneously tough and smoldering. Ross’s work also transmits well in film, capturing those some fierce glances.

Ross, along other amazing photographers and myself, are part of the Big Picture Colorado.  To see all my favorite Ed Ross shots, stop by the Library Vixen Tumblr.

Below is a brief piece written by wet plate photographer, Ed Ross. More information about Ed Ross and the wet plate process can be found on the artist website. 

As a man who appreciates “hand crafted,” Tony suggested I write a bit about my passion: wet plate (aka collodion) photography.  While I find the history of wet plate fascinating, I thought I’d comment here more on the craft.

Wet plate photography generally falls into one of two buckets: ambrotypes and tintypes.  Ambrotypes use glass as a base material, and tintypes use a metal.  Historically, tintypes were created on a piece of iron to which asphaltum had been applied to render it black; many modern practitioners, including me, use blackened aluminum.  One attraction of ambrotypes is that it is possible to make a negative image on the glass, and thus to create multiple positive prints (historically using an albumen, or egg white, solution on the paper — an albumen print).  However, made of glass, ambrotypes are prone to shatter.  In contrast, a tintype is much more durable.  Tintypes were also less expensive to produce, and thus became the favorite wet plate medium of most practitioners in the civil war era.  Dry plates came out in the 1870s (in addition to flatter-field lenses), so much of the unique qualities of the wet plate process, sometimes when combined with curved-field lens optics, was superceded after a mere 20+ years in the pursuit of verisimilitude.

As a modern practitioner, I find the unique aspect of the wet plate process very enjoyable, especially when I think complimented by the unique optical qualities of vintage lenses.  Also, it very satisfying to make my own solutions from base chemicals, and to manipulate each step of the photographic process.  The collodion solution is prepared using collodion (nitrocellulose, or gun cotton, dissolved in ether and alcohol) and salts.  You pour this solution on a plate (glass or metal), roll it around so as to cover the plate, and allow the ether to evaporate.  This leaves a thin layer of salt suspended on the plate in the nitrocellulose.  Next, you insert the plate into a bath of water containing silver.  The silver interacts with the salts to become light sensitive.  You then expose the plate in your wetplate camera, and return to the darkroom.  You then develop the image (completing the chemical process in which the light interacts with the silver-salt).  Next you “fix” the image by inserting it into a bath containing potassium cyanide.  This fix washes away those chemicals that did not interact with the light (exposing the black portion of the plate underneath, ie, the “shadows”).  What remains is a layer of solid silver over a black background.  This is varnished to protect the delicate silver finish and to prevent tarnish.

Ed Ross

Ed Ross on Tumblr

Ed Ross on Model Mayhem

The BIG PICTURE on Facebook 

Top by Aëla Labbé. Bottom by Ed Ross

Two images of mine, including the recognizable, PLUG,  is being blown up!

The BIG PICTURE Colorado, running through March through April 2013, is a world wide street art celebrations c0-hosted by Art-Plant, a Denver based non-profit whose mission is to foster growth in the creative community, and Artwork Network’s mission is to create opportunities for art by developing a network of artists, galleries, businesses, designers and collectors.

The show will feature grand scale contemporary photography exposing the possibility of images as art via email instantly exchanged globally and blown up to large mural proportions. Images gathered from photographers around the world will be expanded as large Xerox prints and displayed inside galleries as well as posted in approved outdoor locations throughout the city of Denver and sister cities around the globe.

The Open Call to submit to the BIG PICTURE has been extended to March 15th.

Later in the month, March 30th ~ 12-5PM,  there will be a BIG PICTURE Celebration  at the “Open Air Gallery ,” behind City O City for amazing images refreshment and music. 206 East 13th Avenue Denver, CO 80203.

The BIG PICTURE on Facebook 

Ed Ross